Okay so like I've (17f) known I've liked women for a long time and I never thought anything of it. I thought it was normal to want to hold a girl's hand all the time and want to be near them and go on dates. But anyway I came to terms that I am a ace lesbian and I feel very comfortable with it. Is it hard to get a gf. Yes mostly bc of me being on the ace spectrum.

So anyways I was at the mall with my dad and brother and we wanted some pretzels and so there was this guy at the cashier. And that day I had alot of trouble hearing like everything was muffled so if someone talked to me I would look at them or their lips to try to understand wtf they be saying and also to try to learn eye contact again.

So I was looking at this guy and I will say that he did look nice but like I didn't see him in a romantic way I just thought oh he looks nice. And when I got to the car I told my mom that the guy looked cute. But for me cute means like oh that's a cute dog or that's a cute cat.

And then my dad was like "oh they where both looking at eachother alot" Luke no shit I can't hear anything! Plus I won't know if anyone is flirting with me if that was the case if he was looking at me. And if he was then I'm not interested.

So I ended telling my sister what happened and she was like "Well I'm glad you like boys again." Like bitch da fuck when did I say that I did!? I just said the guy looked cute that doesn't mean I wanna date him!

Any way I just get mad that my family just get like this. I'm just mostly scared what will happen if I ever get a girlfriend and I'm scared if they will say something about me dating.