I resigned myself to the fact that when I grow up I will live a life that I won't like. I am a teenager, years ago I discovered my sexuality and I currently consider myself a lesbian, but I know that I will not be able to maintain that lifestyle when I am an adult, so I have already resigned myself to marrying a man I will never really love, we will have children because that is the natural course of life, in a few years we will stop loving each other. But we will continue together for the children, those children will not be raised in the correct way because I will hate that life and my husband will surely also be carefree for x or y reason. I will study a career that I will not like but if I am lucky it will give me a sufficient salary to not have financial problems, I will never fulfill my dream of being a writer because I am not good enough and because it does not make money. I will live a miserable life, a family that I despise, a job that will make every day of my life boring, in a place that I probably won't like either, I know I can't change it.