I never talked about this to anyone, I’m gay and I accept that i love men even tho am muslim, I was in a relationship and too soon I didn’t even thought about being in one and we broke up not a long time ago because he suggested to because our life is not matching, like the time we can’t meet because he was busy all of the time with his life and i told him we can change that still he kept giving me reasons and i told him if he loved me fr he would find away to not let go of me just like i did for him, it ended that he talked about he want to repent back to god and he can’t keep this secret and want to marry in future, when I heard this i was shocked cuz being in a relationship was not my even my idea or he changing this quick i don’t know him anymore he is not the man i was with he would never say this, IM not against he repent back but he acted like he will change and won’t do anything with a man, but he did do sex with other ppl so am i the one who triggered this feelings to him, am i the problem, why me ? He broke my heart i will never ever forgive him and I can’t no longer trust anyone or be in relationships after that I’m moving on by hooking up with ppl but still I cry sometimes and i think he never felt the way i felt when we broke up or I don’t think he even cried he moved on

I just wanna know if he would do anything else or have sex with another men after what he said to me cuz if I found out and he actually did do that i will hate him forever, I don’t know why all this happened to me but still I pity myself…