I give up genuinely , I don't want to be gay anymore, i lost my family, my friends, my home and everything just to be who i am and when i finally get to be gay I'm met with so much racism and hate because im from 🍉 and im arab , im tired and the only people who want me either look like they came out of a horror movie or a sitcom or old men that if you blew dust their way they'll die , i don't want to be gay anymore, why why can't i find a normal looking man that genuinely loves me and cares for me , also im not stunning myself but i still look decent and i have a good boy im 197cm (6'4) tall and i got a very average looking body , i try to give it all i got but all i get in return is just cheating and lies and people who just want me for my body, if anyone has any advice I'd really appreciate it