I'm not a return missionary, and I wasnt a priesthood holder at the time. Life with my wife was great and as far as she knows, its was a stress relief from being a new father. I have always been a porn addict, and I still am. I was on Craigslist one day, and there was a request for advice from a new mother, that staopped getting the attention she wanted from her husband. This all started before my daughter was born, and it ended shortly after.

My favorite memory was meeting her one night when I went to return a Redbox movie. She gave her husband the same excuse about Redbox, but he was so involved in his computer he probably didnt even notice. We met at a park and ride outside Provo canyon and it got so steamy in the car from making out. She said she wanted to fuck me, and to this day I regret not doing so. But I wasnt a complete ass, so I went down on her and gave he some mind blowing orgasms... I hope. Haha. But I went back home to my then pregnant wife, and soaked our bed a bit.

I had developed a rule that I was not alowed to have intercourse with anyone I was not married too, but oral was okay.