I’m falling/fell out of love with my boyfriend of two years and tomorrow is going to be the 5th month of long distance relationship.

A little about me(M) and him. We have lived for over a year together before our long distance relationship started last December. We ultimately decided it was time for to go back to the states to continue my education. It’s been a hell lot of reading and more time invested towards myself. Also, less and less time to think about him.

I feel bad. I feel disgusting actually. It’s been about maybe a month now that I know I’m falling out of love and been choosing to ignore it because I thought it was stupid. Now I find myself that I have little to no feelings for him. And it’s been depressing. I don’t know how it came it this. Sometimes when we video call, I see him as a friend. It makes me depressed even more that I know there is no presence of love from me for him.

I’ve talked with my two best friends about this and both of them said that I have to talk to him. But I don’t want to cuz I will hurt him and it will hurt me. In the back of my mind, I feel like I want to be only with myself.

Should I rip off the bandage and break it off with him? I don’t know what to do