Dear Z,

I can’t do this anymore. Usually I just get over it and wait for you to come back but not today today is the day I end it all. You ended it with me and left me out here homeless, clothes less, broke, and broken. Alone. I literally just wanted you. You were my whole world and I know I was not perfect but you can’t deny that I loved you. My heart is physically hurt and breaking and I can’t take the pain. My fear of abandonment has won over my fear of death. I hope your next relationship is everything you want it to be. I hope you learn to communicate and mean what you say. Continue to surround yourself with people you want to be. I hope that my ending saves the next girl from hers. I hope you reflect on your priorities, move away from your best friend and his toxic wife. May you get off the substances and go back to being someone. I love you until my dying breath. I have threatened this before but today it’s not a threat.

Love you M