Just need to vent. Throwaway account.

I’ve got depression and have attempted suicide twice. No longer a suicide threat but I’m not Mr. Fucking Sunshine either.

Bone in my foot healed improperly after I broke it and I’ll live in constant pain for the rest of my life, pain that’s exacerbated when I stand on the foot.

I’ve got high blood pressure. Ended up in the ER tonight for the second time with heart attack-like symptoms. It’s a reaction to the meds I take for my depression and the chronic pain I’m in; some were legal, some weren’t. Thankfully the hospital didn’t include that on my note explaining why I’ll be shit tomorrow morning as I’ll get less than four hours of sleep tonight.

I’m 28. At this rate, I don’t know if I’ll live to see 30. I’m hoping to get out with an application, not a heart attack.

Thank you for letting me vent. I love you fuckers.

Edit: Thank you all for the kind words. Well... thank most of you for such kind words. The people you meet in this industry are truly some of the most amazing in the world. Thank you.