I am a guy who had big dreams growing up .i always wanted to become a scientist, physicist doing research and contemplating the universe in my own way. I had a keen interest towards physics and space. But i come from one of the most populous countries in the world, also from a lower middle class family. Growing up i never had access to computer or toys. Only thing i had access was a school library and a lots of books. I used to read a lot about science and was very interested in that. Growing up during my teenage peer pressure and social pressure made me to study hard for exams which i didn't get enough marks to get the top creamy universities. I did go to an average college with an Bachelor's in electrical engineering ( which i had no idea what i am doing) completing that and situation of my family i went onto a job in Software industry ( which i had no interest) now i am almost 7 years into the industry. I really don't know what i am doing and what's happening around me. I have to work otherwise can't pay the loans and credit cards , emi etc. I am currently in a vicious cycle of this irrelevant work. But some part of me still believes there is some greatness in me waiting to show itself, sometimes i think i am useless as shit. I can't figure out my life or what i have become.