I was born into an intellectual family and raised to go to university and have an academic career. But i was never a careerist and now that i have to do independent research, I am starting to realize that it is not something i could do my whole life for a living. I am in a Jewish Studies program, so i don't really have other options after graduating.

My actual dream is to work any job just to get enough money to open a little bookstore. I am very well read and into pretty much every kind of literature, I think I would be of great help to my customers and it just seems like the perfect thing to be doing. But i am afraid if i do deiced to do this after graduating and give up on an academic career I will disappoint my family and myself. I do have a very very supportive bf who says will support me whatever i end up doing.

I am not looking for advice, just a kind voice so i will stop feeling like a complete failure.