Hey you, thanks for clicking on my post

I’m just kinda really struggling these days, I’m trying to break into the tech field and get a job as a software developer, one of the hardest stuff to do apparently.

I graduated in August and ever since then I’ve spent my time teaching myself stuff that would be useful, the thing is that it takes a toll on my mental health cause I tend to gauge my worth based on the work I do.

In addition to that my family is full of issues (I still live with my parents) and they don’t understand what I’m trying to do so to them I’m just lazy and not doing anything.

I understand why they want me to take responsibility for myself but it feels a bit absurd to me because I’m the youngest of my siblings, at my age (22) I’ve graduated college, worked during my college years and now I’m training myself while my siblings were still in college and have never worked but in addition to that my parents were fine with getting them extra stuff (cars, huge allowance etc) but I don’t get even a fraction of that my allowance is tiny and I risk being fought with if I complain.

Like y’all I’m trying my best and all I want is just some kindness, encouragement and some snacks (lol) every once in a while from my own family. But I don’t even get that. Am I a dick for expecting that from my own family? Or am I an entitled prick?

And yeah, if you’re still here thank you for reading this long rant and have a good one ♥️