I'm 5'11" in shape, discreet, std free, usually up through the night as I'm a night owl and my work schedule makes it even more so. Problem is I never have any chance for dating as I don't go to clubs or bars, and kind of anti social these days, especially after leaving an emotionally abusive situation with my ex gf, and was hoping to find a female for fwb situation, but had no luck and hard to trust anyway after being with an abusive ex that did nothing but lie, cheat and steal from me, making me doubt myself over time by placing blame on me for everything she did, feeling like im better off on my knees getting my head pinned against the wall by a guy and being, even being humiliated and degraded.

I got taken advantage of several times by an older man when I was younger who did exactly that. It was hard to enjoy because I didn't choose for it to happen, but I never disliked it by itself,, and only recently accepted that after leaving my ex and getting out of the hole I was in.