For a bit of context, I thought I was the most vanilla guy on earth. I don’t get turned on by many things, which is why I tell people I’m on the asexual spectrum. This is just a thought-dump post:

I was a late bloomer in puberty and never masturbated more than once a day at my peak levels of hormones. While I mostly used theater of the mind, I also used to occasionally watch porn. From randomly scrolling through one these sites, I had discovered something that really got my blood flowing.

It was a random lactation video using a breast pump. This isn’t inherently sexual, but man was I turned on. I looked up more things of this content and stumbled upon ANR (adult-nursing relationship). In a nutshell, one in the relationship lactates for increased stimulation and pleasure while their partner relieves them of engorgement but breastfeeding off them.

I’m already a boob guy, but ANR always sounded like a good idea to me as I’m a people pleaser and love the idea of “relieving” my partner with my presence. The idea of cuddling and maybe suckling a bit just makes my insides melt… I’m not into age play, or even breeding. More so the cuddling and intimacy it brings.

I hesitantly experimented it with an incredibly cool woman and it was incredibly fun and enjoyable for both of us! It was short lived due to my hesitancy and anxiety to accept if my kink was something I wanna be devoted to.

However, I still feel a massive amount of guilt as it’s not the “norm.” I never told anyone about it since it’s so taboo, at least for me. I just wish I wasn’t so breast obsessed, it’s just how I’m wired…

In the end, it’s definitely the feeling of it all. I think as my confidence in myself grows, I’ll have a more level head in thinking about sexual pleasure.

How did you guys manage your kink(s) at first?