First time poster. Mobile.

Exploring new found thoughts and feelings and no where safe to ask questions without feeling embarrassed.

Please recommend any subs I could ask if this isn’t the right spot.

I have this feeling of everyone is looking at me, and they want me. Keep reading for examples.

It’s important to note that I’ve recently lost a ton of weight and people notice.

Example 1) My BIL has always kinda looked at me and made comments towards me. Zero interest on my part. He recently saw me after a few years (sis&BIL live in NM and I live in IL). He mentioned how look I looked and bet I’m living my best life out there, hinting at my escapades lol. The thing is, I love and get so turned on by the idea of him wanting me, I want him to want to fuck me so bad and do anything to get my attention. I just have zero interest in any physical contact with him whatsoever. So like….?????? brain screaming.

Example 2) An old friend recently hit me up. He is gushing over me and of course I love the attention. He was sort of a FWB years ago, but it fizzled because our sexual chemistry didn’t match. But here I am again - absolutely soaked thinking about him wanting me. However, I don’t want him because we don’t match well.

I get most of this is natural, the high of confidence. Confidence boost; is that all this is? Is there such a kink as someone getting off to the idea of others wanting them but not being able to have them?

It’s like, confusing and I appreciate any advice or suggestions.