Not sure how to start this so I'll jump right in. I have some strict moral codes and I personally believe in monogamy and no cheating. But I really enjoy the Idea of being what I've coined as rotisserie chickened by my bf and another guy or sucking off another guy in front of my bf or being free use fucked by stranger. I have a lot of anxiety and my morals don't really agree with the horniness for this idea and even though the idea of it is really hot I worry that if we acted on it(bf would be in support of this he thinks it's hot to) that I would hate myself after or never forgive myself for and see myself differently. Should I leave this as a back of my head fantasy or maybe try just giving head to another guy with my bf there? Advice on this?