After more than 5 years NC (which I do not regret), it still tore me up. I snuck by while she was doing her thing in the store (she was behind the jewellery counter raising hell - yes I truly mean behind the counter where only employees are to be).

Seeing her and her behavior (which is nothing new) should not upset me. While we live in the same town, I have moved, did the PO BOX and she has not figured out to stalk me yet due to cutting off all extended family.

(She still makes me terrified when I see her and think about dealing with her. I'm 55 years old and still terrified of my mother. How sad. I know I am a strong person and I have achieved many things in my life. )

This above was what I was going to write, but the truth is, she makes me disgusted with her behavior. I do not like the fear she can instill in me. Only I can change this.

Any suggestions to resources would be appreciated.