depressed :( . I just want to cry a lot about the meaninglessness of existence in a non-nihilist way. More of a meaninglessness imposed on life.

Anything to make this fellow Jungian feel better? I might have to try to fight to stave off a descent into a genuine depression. A part of me just wants to let it happen.

I don’t think this is a very good post about it but I’m in a hurry and etc

Even my book about Jung’s ideas isn’t able to hold my attention, with 70% of my brain resources being redirected elsewhere like to worrying as I try to read. It’s hard being inpatient with no idea when I’ll get to leave, being told I’m here for my own good.

Edit: glad I posted this. I’m going to think on it in the morning and push. I feel so very lonely though. Makes me want to scream.