Until a few years ago, I lived my entire life pretty much unconscious, just like most people do.

However, after some very interesting LSD trips combined with some Jungian knowledge, it's been incredibly difficult to return to what I used to know as reality.

I finally understand what the Ego represents, and although I don't reject it, I don't identify with it anymore.

The way I look at things, the Ego, which is more of an Animus representation, is what give us a sense of identity and awareness. It's the opposite of the Anima, in the sense that it organizes the chaos, and tries to make some sense of it.

I see it as the physical avatar, on which our social mask is constructed so the Self is able to live on this frequency we call "reality".

After better understanding and integrating the Anima, I'm starting to see the other frequencies which are naked to the physical senses, and see this "reality" as a mere reflection of the actual reality.

Most people however, still identify with their mask/ego, which act as a veil that covers the actual essence of things.

So whenever I interact with people, there is this very awkward feeling of hiding something.

I feel as I have to pretend like there's nothing behind the mask, which makes me feel dishonest to myself, but if I don't do that, people feel weird around me and push me away, as they don't want to look inwards at themselves.

Has this happened to anybody else?

How do you handle reality after understanding everything is just a cover for something hidden beneath?