I am wondering perhaps there is a complex or something that I feel the only way to deal with some of my issues is to dive into politics. It is not even that I want to control people, but I want other to get off my back and allow me to individuate with minimal regulation. I feel like when I am involved in campaigning or promoting a cause, I feel at ease. The only other similar feeling is psychedelic trips and romantic feelings (that to blossom). I feel like when I am not pursuing the political, I am pursuing the other two or a way to get those two (by running away to another land, ie. escapism). I want to face my issues head on, but it seems like these main forces are a large part of what drive my decisions. What is the psychology for switching one for the other? This has been since my childhood. Even when I am not directly political (say programming), I want to create things that promote Enlightenment ideals. I wonder also if this is a bad thing or not, as I try to learn and do other things, but the raw energy from political activism can't be matched by any of my other hobbies.