For several years I've been attempting to understand existence. I've had strange things happen and have learned things that have led me to believe that there may be a God. For various reasons, I keep being drawn to Judaism.

I tried to talk to Rabbi Manis Friedman, but he charges way too much money, which I can't afford. I've e-mailed Chabad several times, but basically all they do is tell me to read their web site. But I have specific questions. And all of this has caused me great suffering--I've been institutionalized because of it a few times.

I live in a small town in Georgia. The nearest temple is an hour from me. I e-mailed them, but they never responded.

How can I go about finding someone knowledgeable to speak with about this?