Hi, my name is Carlos (40 yo)and this past years have been hard since last year I wanted to start drawing and writing again, haven't done so since I was in high school, so figured I should start doing both. I have been trying to sketch but to be honest I never like what I draw, I guess I'm too critical of myself.

This past April I decided to order a journal, graph ruled, then started writing some old poems I found from high school, but there was something about the graph ruled that I didn't like so figured I'd get a ruled journal instead, I like it better but spacing seem to be too big. I can never win lol. I also bought couple of fountain pens, hoping it would slow my writing and improve it.

Now I have two journals not counting a document in Google Drive. I want to use the graph ruled journal for random thoughts, sketches or doodles. Then use the ruled one for writing with more intention like, poems, thoughts, memories (story?)

My grandfather once told. "There are three things a man has to do in their life; plant a tree, have a kid and write a book." Those words are stamped in the back of my head, so far I have only done one and hope that one day I can complete the other two. He did all three.

Advice request:

1. I live with my mother and my younger brother, both are curious and feel sometimes they might read it if they see it on my desk, or probably wont, but if I write and write sad things or failed dreams I know they will feel bad and really don't want that. I may hid it or not not sure.
2. What to do if there is something you wrote but didn't want to see it or other people to see it, cover it? draw on top, glue pages together, rip the page out?
3. How do you correct spelling on your journal? or do you just leave it alone?

Thank you, and I hope that at some point I have enough to share what I write.