I had journaled when I was a teen and used it to keep my secrets.A place to be authentically myself, away from my family and significant others.

A place to figure out who I was and who I continued to be. My father used to read my diaries, unbeknownst to me. It wasn't until he punished me for going to a bar when I was underaged that I figured out he was reading what I wrote.

So I tried to write online.

He brainwashed me into believing that anything written online would be used against me. I didn't write again until I moved out, and by then it was more scrapbooking what I had done with the kids, events I went to and the occasional journal prompt.

I lost myself in the hum-drum of existence by the time I was 34 and wanted to create an "external memory" that would help me with my calendar, tracking moods and monitor my company's progress.

What happened was it got me mad.

I learned to hate recording the spiraling database and my moods were just as cylinder. Or should I say sinister. Day after day I began to disregard, deny and dissociate from the influx of negativity.

Pulling up my "big girl panties" I stopped writing and started using video to journal. It was a mess. I still have hours of video that I've never rewatched because of various reasons...

It's been roughly 6 years since I closed my company and gave up journaling.

I had shoulder surgery a year ago, and I feel it's important to start writing again as it's a skill I had lost due to injury. I wrote for the first time last week and what came up was my frustrations regarding having to close the company, my inability to manage my employees as well as my own sense of humor around my attempts to be a life coach.

Why was it so hard and why am I so angry still after 6 years? Truthfully it's just a "hump" in the road as I recognize that I'm going to have to do all these things to be successful, yet feel like I'm having to slow down for a big lump in my path sigh.

Anyway, wondering if anyone has hit journaling burnout and if so how did you get over it?