Ever since I was little whenever I was given a diary/notebook I never wanted to write in it and ‘ruin’ it.

I always wanted to wait until I had the perfect handwriting with the even more perfect thing to write however whenever I finally took the plunge, I hated it.

I hated how it looked, I hated what it said and I couldn’t bare myself to read it. I would rip the page out so the book could be as it was.

I would love to use journaling as a meditative practice that can help me to become more introspective and in touch with my emotions as well as reflect on my day and actions to become a better person but I just don’t know what to write or how to physically write it in a way that I won’t hate.

I have tried digital journaling but I’m not sure if it’s as meditative as physical journaling would be, I also am not consistent and haven’t done it for over 2 months as when I read previous entries they seem so shallow and surface level regarding my day, actions and goals.

Right now I have had a Moderno A5 Notebook with inside back pocket and double ribbon, 96 ivory sheets 100gsm since last year that is untouched because I just don’t know how to write in it or what to write.