I have tried to support. I have tried to honor that thin blue line. I have made reports. I have told what I know when someone elses shit goes missing and they call. I have kept my mouth shut and charged thousands of my personal property to the game. I have defended my people, and I have given names when appropriate and requested by other people. I have been taken in on a baker act and called crazy. I have scratched myself into a skin infection from top to bottom. I have started bankruptcy proceedings. I have withheld accusations because I didn't have the evidence. I have been patient and collected information and waited and watched everything I had torn apart, and my family's trust in me dwindle as tweakers and junkies stole from my father despite increased surveillance. I have begged my father to let me install cameras and lights, which he has not allowed or became offended at the asking. I have forgiven everything from sexual assault and attempted murder against myself to petty theft.

I have welcomed people into my home in their time of need, and I have shut out people i used to csll my friends. I have cut my use to nothing. I have shut people out who would be invaluable were I to continue to use. I have gone through a year of hell and depression and side ways glances andnpeople openly questioning my judgment and sanity. I have built a case. I have the evidence. I have a timeline. I have names and details and connections.

But, according to the police, the tracker on my missing laptop does not give them enough cause to even knock on the door, and they can't make an arrest without camera evidence.

They don't have time for the evidence. Apparently reception of stolen property isn't arrestable either. Fuck the system. Defund the police. Damn the man and save whatever the fuck is left worthy in my life.

Oh but im mean and rude to people. Hang me.