My family history is complicated. Filled with alcoholism, narcissism and constantly bullying me. Not to mention there’s a deep, dark family secret that I’ve never told anyone and will take it to my grave…

I currently live with my brother (34M), he’s a functioning alcoholic and has never said a single nice thing about me. Not to mention he bullied me relentlessly when I was younger.. he’s a huge narcissist, too.

My mom (57F) is a functional alcoholic too and very delusional, also never acknowledged any trauma that’s ever happened to me or our family. She gaslights me anytime I bring it up.

My eldest brother (40M) is in prison for life. He was the root for a majority of our problems, he made our lives a living hell from the ages 1-12 years old.

I’m sick of the bullying, the gaslighting, no one confronting their problems or taking responsibility for them, etc. I’m officially going NC once I’m moved out.. I’m exhausted and want/need to heal.

TLDR: sick of my family’s unresolved trauma/bullying, functioning alcoholic mother and brother, brothers relentlessly bully me/never said a nice thing about me, brother is in prison and is a root of our problems, etc..