I'm going on a free, 2 week vacation with my family on Sunday. My sisters will be there, and they are twins. Their husbands & the one twins dogs will be there, too & of course our parents. I'm a little nervous, tho, bc my sisters are SUPER close, they have that tight knit twin bond & everything & I usually end up psyching myself out & getting super excited & then I get let down. It is VERY hard to compete with that insane twin bond.

A little back history, my sisters will be 35 in December. I am 38. We had our ups & downs growing up. I have bipolar 2 & BPD. My sister Melony* doesn't like conflict, so any time I'd have a fight with my dad or whatever, she'd flee & leave, whether on the golf cart, or in her car to a friends house to get away for a bit. My other sister, Melissa*, always came to my aide & helped me settle down if something was wrong. She was always there for me if I had a meltdown.

I'm on bipolar meds & don't usually have outbursts anymore. But my father doesn't understand mental health issues & thinks I'll be fine without my meds. My mom & I know that's not true. I need my meds to survive & function properly.

Anyway, so 2 weeks is a long time for everyone who isn't used to living with each other, be together. Luckily I have my own room in the basement of the condo. I have basically the entire basement to myself. But what I'm worried about is, should I just figure they won't include me in anything? I've been trying to get them to talk to me on the phone for 15 mins each week. Heck, I KNOW they talk to each other daily! I don't think it's very fair that I get excluded all the damn time. My mom understands this, & just says that twin bond is something fierce. So... no one tries to help me improve our relationship. It's just me trying & it's super annoying. Heck, if it wasn't for me insisting us talk weekly, I'd never talk to them. IDK if that's what they want? We haven't talked in a month bc we all forgot.

Anywho, I guess I'm just a little upset. I'm typically a loner. Being bipolar I can be either super friendly & chatty (manic) or a total loner & wanna be alone (depressed). Not too sure how our trip is gonna go. I'm hoping for the best, but from our past trips, I'm just a bit worried.

Is anyone else here a sibling of twins? Do you experience something similar to what I am discribing? How do you cope?