Knowing that Mother’s Day is coming up is giving me severe anxiety every time I think about it. Mother’s Day was always treated so oddly, rarely was it about the day itself but rather who was willing to spend the most out of the money us kids worked for. Older narc sister used to yell at us and call us ungrateful if we weren’t up at the crack of dawn searching for flowers to buy. That’s kind of left this ingrained idea within me that spending my heard earned money (while in grad school with no help!) is the way to go. I have been nc for about 2 months now, and this is the first holiday since then that will be the most “making a statement” wise. I know what I’ve gone through at her hands, but this anxiety and GUILT for not saying happy Mother’s Day or getting a gift is horrible. I kind of just want to get her something small (I live upstate from her) just to stop her from talking bad about me but I know that it’ll just be another point of contention. Help me stay strong y’all!