Does anyone else have a silent/somatic protector like this?

I’ve been a content creator as my full time job since I was 14, and it comes with a lot of natural ups and downs emotionally and financially.

Unfortunately as a child I was in no position to deal with extreme expectations, drama, and internet predators — so I developed a deep somatic pain in my chest that would feel like my heart was about to rip open. I’m shocked I didn’t end up in the ER. Just one event could trigger days of non-stop pain.

As an adult I’m in a good place, and couldn’t figure out why I couldn’t get any work done for months; usually there’s a little voice that clues me in such as “I don’t want to go to XYZ, last time we were there ABC happened. But this time there was absolutely nothing.

I did a session focusing on physical eelings and imagery more so— and met this protector gradually. I was able to negotiate permission to work under the guideline of babysteps and a schedule because he really craved stability in out work.