Cashed out

As the title states, I (41m) finally with nc with my cheating betraying (30f) whatever you want to call them……. Lesson of life possibly, female and much like cashing out down at the casino, leaving that boat with a little less!

They don’t change and no matter how much you would like to forget it and make it work, it’s just never the same. I found out in May that a suspected affair from a drunken night from July 22’ was true and I truly believe that was only revealed to hide contacting this Mf again in May or possibly the whole dang time! She won’t communicate, seek any type of help, even put in the work learning about herself and working on that. I do forgive but you just don’t forget when ya were doing everything right!

I should’ve never spoke to her again then and I kinda knew in my heart last July 22’ was also true, ya gut don’t lie, so really I should’vedid this then and wish I would’ve known the truth then! Anyone with that suspicion who isn’t guilty of their own infidelity please listen to your gut! I tried to continue a connection with this chic because I did have feelings for her and the connection and intimacy was amazing. It was torture everyday, thinking about if she’s lying and deceiving, cheating, emotional/physical it’s all the same. The juice just wasn’t worth the squeeze at the end of the name to me anyways even though she was a beautiful woman, that soul and character was just something I needed to separate myself from! So today, after just reaching the end of my rope, I calmly said-This is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, but since you are impossible of communicating, refuse or give excuses about putting in any type of effort/working on herself, this is the last time you will ever see or hear from me again. I do wish you the best and one day I hope you find whatever it is ya looking for, but that was never me so with so that said, take care of yourself! No kiss no hug no further eye contact once I was done speaking! We met at casual location because I haven’t even had her at my house since May. I cashed out and didn’t even look in rear a view!

I’m a very positive, up-beat, focused, passionate, guy, own multiple businesses, follower of Christ, fit etc and the trauma that betrayal can inflict on you is something that death of a loved one does, possibly more because someone who loves you would not do you as they do, they just die, cycle of life!!!

I was a good person to this chic and her three children and it didn’t matter, it didn’t matter it was something she’d never experienced, a cheater will cheat and that’s bottom line! No one deserves to accept this from someone! Focus on who truly loves you, be active and open with your friends, release the negative trauma they inflicted on you and do life!

I don’t play on hoping back out there, but I promise ya I will be living to the fullest and won’t ever allow myself to endure suffering from deceptive woman ever again! Choose yourself and accept the truth, fix yourself and succeed through the roof!!! Anyone ever need someone to talk, my PM is open✌🏼