Refernce Pic in my Profile  Posting again without the pic. (Didn't new pics werent allowed here )

The bengali couple i had met during the diwali party who had a caste basrd reparation fetish - I have went ahead with them taking up the role of a thirf (Bull) for them.

I have also been letting them indulge in thier caste based kink as well.

Even though i never faced any discrimination, operrsion or exploitation because of my caste. But indulging with them in their kink is also making me feel that i deserve this as a part of caste based reparations somehow.

Its been good but in a wierf way of a psychological experince.

The two othet kinks the couple wants to explore are financial and breeding cuckolding.

I am getting a hang of this financial cuckolding - trying and eperimenting with things - figuring what works and what not.

So its been a journey which i think will contininue futher.

Coming to breeding, I was having fun with this fetish of them as well.

But now with her IUD out, the thing as gotten too real too fast.

The couple is saying they wany atleast 2-3 children to whom he will pass on his generational wealth to, as he thinks keeping it with his bloodline going ahead too will be bigotry.

The thing is I am in my late 40s, the thought of becoming a father even if just being a biological father is quite daunting.

Like it was all fun and games until the IUD was getting removed, it has come all down to me of how real is this. It like I suddenly have started to think with my mind than my balls.

There is also the case of firtility, like I am in my late 40s I have not been on top of my fertility. Like i dont know if my sperm count is high enough or not.

All this is putting a lot of pressure on me to performe which in turn is making me not wanting to perform.

Like i have been invited today eveing, and since morning I am feeling reluctant to go.

What should i do ?? How should in get out of this pressure and get in my mojjo.

I am feeling all this will have and bad impact on my sexual health which will put me in more pressure and thus affect my sexual health more.

How should I stop this cycle? Nip this in the bud before it festers ?