So I 22 FtM have been dealing with lower back nerve damage, from hypermobility issues, I also have autism and already initially struggled with recognizing bathroom cues.

It’s gotten to the point where I’ve had lots more bed wetting, and leaking and struggling to hold it. To the point where it’s very stressful and really makes me anxious to go out and do stuff.

So now I struggle with not noticing when I need to go, but when I do, I have a really hard time holding and experience lots of leaking and sometimes even pissing my pants on accident.

I will say, I am an SFW agere and into some ABDL stuff, so I have worn in secret and private but more so as a comfort item, never something I actually needed or relied on.

But now that it’s becoming something more of an issue, I’m worried how to tell my family, I still live at home because of health issues and housing being way too unaffordable.

But it’s embarrassing, I have a lot of health issues and it’s hard to feel confident and independent when suddenly you’re struggle with bladder control issues and everything else and money is super tight and I can’t afford to being seeing more doctors.

Diapers were more of a stress reliever and something I wore time to time to relax, and are not becoming more of a necessity, I try to play it off and not let it get to me but it’s hard not to feel embarrassed.

How do I tell my family and how do I bring it up to my doctor?

I don’t want to go to specialist (or have the money) or deal with insurance arguing over new meds if I do bring it up to my doctor.

It’s just nerve wracking and embarrassing and I’m scared to tell my family I’m struggling with this type of issue. But it’s becoming harder to hide the evidence of my accidents and I’m scared of my family making fun of me or getting upset I’m having more health issues.

It’s really making my depression and anxiety worse.

And I just need advice, I’m trying to remain positive and confident because I know a lot of people struggle with these issues.

Any advice or reassuring words are appreciated, this is not a kink or fetish post, just a genuine cry for help.