I’ve been chronicling my pursuit of my step daughter for the last several weeks. I’m taking a slow, steady and calculated approach, and if and when the time comes, she’s calling the shots.

Call me crazy but it seems like fate is dropping me subtle nudges. Last night, I had a sweet exchange of texts with her, dropping subliminal hints of my desire for her, disguised as honest conversation. It felt good getting positive vibes from her, even though it was incredibly difficult to not just open up and tell her that I want her, I need her. So many things popped up while browsing social media that made me think of her or things we’ve done together in the past.

Then today, a “reminder” on Facebook from two years ago... it’s a picture of the two of us, laughing at a restaurant after her soccer game. I was reminded later this evening that the reason for this picture was it was the first time I smiled and laughed in a couple of weeks. I was still getting through a terrible family event, and I was miserable to say the least. It was my step daughter that broke my gloom. I’m not sure what was said, but she was cracking up and I was smiling ear to ear.

She was the only person who could make me happy again. And now, she’s making me happy again, just her being her. She will always be that special person in my life who can make me happy no matter the circumstance. It only makes sense that I want more of that, only in an intimate way.

I hope I’m reading the signs right and things are actually progressing as they seem to be. I can hardly wait to see her again, hopefully very soon.