I've gotten a lot of people wondering how things are going between my brother and I. For him, things are going amazing. He's still trying to figure out if he's trans, he knows he's bi and a bottom, but has yet to have an experience.

For me, it's complicated. My desire for him scares me. I thought it would be just for fun but our fucking and we're now at five times has been incredibly intense. I've never let a guy fuck me without a condom (even tho I'm on BCP), but with him I need to feel him cum inside me.

I've learned that I enjoy being dominant with him. Picking out the lingerie he will wear, telling him when he'll wear it. Telling him not to touch himself. He's very subby and I enjoy being in charge.

Before things with my brother I might masturbate idk 3 times a week. Now I feel horny af constantly. I'm at like 3 times a day most days. I don't really have anyone irl that I can talk to about this. Being this horny has given me strong fantasies of doing OF, stripping, or being an escort. When I imagine that my orgasms are sooo strong. I don't even need my vibrator just thinking about this and rubbing my clit makes me explode inside.

This is kinda surprising to me. I'm very bookish. Strangely not if you look at me, pink purple hair, I love my makeup, so I'm always made up. Love wearing revealing clothes. Top the exposes my belly or my cleavage. But deep down I've always thought I was an introvert. My relationship with my brother has changed that.

I love in a small town so people talk and experience wise I've been with girls and I kind of prefer girls. I want to give my brother the opportunity to explore with guys that's safe and allows me to be there with him. Not exactly easy where I live.

Anyhow I just wanted to give everyone an update. Thanks for everyone that would listen to me and offer advice. I love this subreddit so much!