I've read a lot, lot of posts here - you can tell the actual experiences vs. fictional.

I've told other people about my experiences, I decided to write about them for a larger audience - with anonymity. I'm probably not going to answer a lot of questions from a majority of people that reply; I'm not looking to help people get off - I get it, it's just not why I'm here.

I have incest in my background with my first cousin (girl) growing up, we were a year apart, and we always kept it hush hush - no one ever found out. I only disclose it to people that are like minded, with some vetting.

My exGF and I met as closeted sex addicts; I could sense that she had the same type of background and dynamic.

She was involved with her Mom, Sister, Brother, and Sisters' Husband. Her father wasn't part of that dynamic, her parents were divorced earlier in her life, and I could never tell if he knew about what went on or not. It was never mentioned by anyone in front of him; assumption is he didn't know.

You would never, ever ever guess this family dynamic from the outside world. This family was incredibly attractive, intelligent, well read and educated; all while having extremely close family and sexual bond together as a unit. I was brought into that dynamic for 6 years.

At home, we all lived within a 6 mile radius in a pretty populated area in the center of the country. (USA) Really beautiful area, very attractive population overall. We mostly spent time together as a family at my gf's (at the time) sisters' place. She had a large house on a large plot of land that was far away from everyone that we could be ourselves outside in the pool area, without covering up our home lives. 80% of the time we were all naked. Most of the nights / weekends were sex filled. We all had sex, with each other; sometimes group, mostly 2 or 3 people at a time. We fucked, made love, explored all of the kinks, and had such a close relationship with each other, even now, it's a bond that will last for the rest of my life - even though we're not together anymore. I get that most of the writings in this sub concentrate pretty hard on the incest kink. The families that are similar to my own experiences, not a lot of people - at least from what I've read in this sub - never write about the incredible bond that you feel within this family dynamic. It's pretty remarkable, unmistakable, and I can't imagine it being replicated in a similar group that 'wasn't' a family dynamic. Even to this day, it's one of the most remarkable experiences of my life - and that's saying something. And, I can never mention it to anyone that I know, ever; unless I know that they have a similiar background. Dating now without incest in my life, it's like a missing link. I'm sure the people out there that find themselves in the same type of boat, different ocean...