One summer night, when I was 18, I was staying the night with my cousin (my uncle's daughter) we got a bottle of vodka and spent the day drinking at the beach, then we got to her house and she ended up getting pretty drunk and passing out rather early on in the night. I, on the other hand, paced myself so I stayed just the perfect amount of drunk steadily throughout the day / night. Well, after getting to her house and her passing out I decided to chill in the living room and just watch TV while fuckin around on my phone. At some point, my uncle came in the living room and sat down in the recliner which was kind of kitty cornered from me. Anyways we start watching Zoolander and making small talk here and there on the side, all while sharing laughs in between of course. I remember I was wearing a over sized white see through v neck t shirt, with my bikini underneath , since we had spent the day at the river. Anyways, my uncle finishes off his beer and gets up to grab another one... He comes back with two, pops the top off one of them, and sits it in front of me. I remember being kinda surprised, just cuz he had never given me booze before and actually discouraged me and my cousin from alcohol not long before that. But I kept it casual and just said thanks . I propped my legs up on the coffee table in front of me, and started sipping my beer. Not long after that , I remember feeling the cold AC air on my pussy a little bit, and that's when I realized that my bikini bottoms were kind of on wonky, so my pussy was kind of peaking out one of the sides . First reaction was to put my legs down in a regular position, but instead I kinda smiled to myself and decided to stay in my current position. Idk if it was just because I was "just drunk enough" - u know like the flirty, slutty, fun drunk... (Not the sloppy slutty drunk lol) feeling just the perfect amount of liquid courage, but anyways, I ended up slowly turning my body so I was facing toward my uncle's direction more , hoping I could make it so my pussy would be in his line of sight if he happened to glance over. After about ten minutes of checking over at my uncle every couple minutes, I finally caught him looking over and down at me, or my pussy to be exact. I remember feeling my cheeks get flush, and my heart beat get faster. After that, it seemed like more times than not when I would sneak a glance over at my uncle, he was looking down at my little pussy. The movie ended, and my uncle ends up taking a quick shower. So I take advantage of his absence by positioning myself so that my shirt would be pulled up and I pulled my bottoms over to the side to make sure my pussy was completely out and exposed. I wanted my uncle to see my pussy right there on full display the second he walked in the living room. Then I just waited til I heard him get out of the shower so I could pretend to be asleep. A little while goes by til finally I hear the bathroom door click open, and I quickly shut my eyes. I remember feeling this intense rush of emotions, like excitement and adrenaline. I could even feel my pussy getting kinda wet. After a few minutes , I hear my uncle's footsteps as he's approaching the living room, and at that point my pussy gets even more wet, as I imagined him touching me all over the place . Suddenly I hear my uncle stop in his tracks and then it was just silence. I couldn't hear much over the air conditioner. After what seemed like forever, I decided to take a peak by barely opening my eyes, just enough so that he wouldn't be able to tell I was awake, and once my eyes finally focused on what was going on, there I see my uncle - he's sitting in the recliner , nothing on but a towel that's draped over his legs, and he's just staring at me in the darkness as he strokes his cock. I instantly get super turned on, so I slowly start moving my hand down til I reach my pussy and then I start rubbing my clit softly and slowly, making tiny little moans every now and then as I play with myself, continuing to keep my eyes open just enough so it still looks like they are still closed. I hear my uncle get up and come towards me, he sits on the couch next to me, lifting one of my legs and kinda resting it on himself, as he puts his hand between my legs and starts rubbing my clit and fingering my pussy. I remember trying to hold back, but after a probably 7 minutes I just couldn't contain myself anymore, and I ended up opening my eyes and just seeing him stand over me stroking his big cock as he's rubbing my clit, made me so fuckin hot. He actually made me cum and I remember I had to stuff my face in the couch cushion just to muffle the sounds I was making so I wouldn't wake up my cousin. Pretty sure if my face wouldn't of been stuffed in a pillow he would of seen my eyes roll to the back of my head, I came soooo fucking hard. And then after that, he stood up as I was still laying on the couch , and put his cock right up in my face, and so I of course put my mouth on his cock, despite the fact I was honestly not even feeling it anymore cuz I already came lol. But I knew that wasn't fair. So I sucked his cock , and tried my damnest to take the entire thing but it was like I couldn't even take half of it down my throat before I would start viciously gagging (I wasn't very skilled at giving head back then lol). I remember I almost threw up on his cock two diff times, I had tears rolling down both sides of my face, my nose was running, I felt like a hot mess. And then he had the audacity to order that I opened my eyes and looked up at him while I suck his cock. So I reluctantly did as I was told.... And the instant I looked up at him , he locked his eyes on me, and told me I was being such a good girl, and mentioned something about how I just had to seduce him , and this was the consequences. Anyways .. he ended up blowing the fattest load down my throat that night, and then we both proceeded to pass the fuck out. Him in his bed, me in the living room on the couch. The next morning my uncle woke my cousin and I up for breakfast, he made French toast bacon & eggs. We of course acted like nothing happened. Altho there was definitely a weird, kind of awkward tension in the air ... I remember completely avoiding making eye contact or anything with him that morning. Anyways, after that, I started staying over to "hang with my cousin" a lot more often... Every weekend I possibly could, it seemed like. My uncle and I continued to have this secret little sex fling on the side, sneaking around whether it was during the night when my cousin was asleep, or when she would be at her moms for the weekend and it was just us two, for the entire weekend . Those were the best weekends. I remember him teaching me so many things, he loved to throw some porn on and be like "see how she's doing that? Do it like she does it" or sometimes he would just verbally give me little tricks and tips. One thing I remember is him always telling me to moan on his cock . And he would always say in a stern , dominant voice, "u look up at me while your sucking that cock, missy". I always loved when he called me a good girl, or sometimes he would call me a naughty little whore. He loved to bring up the fact I seduced him that night, and it was my fault we were in this position (sneaking around so we could suck and fuck each other ) Anyways, this went on for about 4.5 years, until my uncle met a woman around his age , and obviously this hindered our little secret side thing quite a lot. Especially after they moved in together... Anyways, we tried to sneak off and have a quickie a couple times after she moved in, but things were just getting too risky and ppl he ended up cutting things off with me , which I'm not going to lie - I took pretty hard. Infact, I was ....kind of destroyed.... For a while. I kind of resisted ending things at first, but my uncle remained stern in his decision and I eventually gave up, realizing he really wasn't going to change his mind. So following that, I really only saw him a few times and very briefly , during family gatherings or different birthdays /holiday celebrations and such. I've since then moved across the country, and now I haven't seen or talked to him in 2 years. And probably won't see or talk to him ever again, if I'm being honest. And I'm more than okay with that. Last time I saw him, I said little more then hello to him and his now fiance.i barely even looked in their direction. I'm sure they are probably married by now, or will be very soon if they aren't already. Idk, I don't care either way. I just hope they are happy , I really wish no harm or hard feelings on him. I just have no desire to know how he's doing or anything like that. It just feels like that chapter is over, that door is closed - and I have no desire to reopen it. Life goes on, and it is what it is. Anyways, this post is extremely long so I suppose I should wrap it up..... So with that being said, although I have moved on with my life, ive just come to the realization in the last year or so how much influence those experiences with him had on me and who I am today. It's definitely played a major role in how I approach sex. So I guess ill end with this: dear uncle, thanks for teaching me how to suck and fuck like a pornstar - my dude thanks you as well. Says you taught me how to give awesome head 😏 lol! Kidding. (Not really tho💁‍♀️)