So since I can remember I've always wanted to fuck my mom. She isn't too attractive but it's the fact that she'd probably do whatever for me. I slept in her bed for a while, I think up until I was like 13 or so. It wasn't consistent but I'd have nightmares sometimes and she'd let me sleep in her bed. Eventually around 7 or 8 I'd try to sneak a look at her tits and pussy but never could. After a while there were signs of her flirting I guess you could say. I remember I was like 15 or 16 and she caught me jacking off. She left the room for a minute or so and came back in to tell me it was natural and that she's caught my brothers too. I'd didn't know what to say other than goodnight. A few months later I was saying goodnight to her and I had a really hard boner and I hugged her and made sure I made her feel it. She then said "You're such a strapping young man". I haven't done anything since then because she got married and moved. Now I don't know if I'll ever get a chance to fuck her but that doesn't stop my dreams. I've had countless dreams of just fucking her free Use style, her in the bathroom and I just fuck her from behind or me hopping in bed with her and fucking her slowly so nobody hears. Idk what to do