My cousin [F] and I had an intensely passionate but toxic year long, long distance relationship 5 years ago. She was my first kiss and we lost our virginities to each other. Due to our inexperience, the sex was admittedly not great, but felt intense at the time as we were madly in love. I had recently gotten out of a 2 year long relationship and had experience to share now.

After our breakup, we went 4 years without talking but recently reconnected through a cousin group call. We started talking again, reminiscing about the past and expressing regret for the way we treated each other.

Recently I visited her country again and saw her in person a few times. There was a bit of hand holding but nothing else physically until the 2nd last time I saw her, when I got her to pull off her mask so I could kiss her again. Holding her and kissing her again after all these years felt like coming home after a long and exhausting day.

On the last night, we were chilling at a relative's place with other relatives around and as it got late, eventually we were left alone in an air conditioned room downstairs. Immediately, we couldn't keep our hands off each other. I mean hands on her face, around her waist, around her neck and up her thigh, while hers were around my shoulders and back pulling me in closer.

I didn't think anything further was possible given the risk of being walked in on, but after a desperately hard (forgive the pun) 10 minutes I couldn't take it anymore and put a hand on her breast. She moaned and it made me rock hard, her moans are amazing and got me so worked up immediately. I started to grab and massage her tit, rubbing her nipple over her bra and under her shirt. Then I began kissing down her body to her neck, eventually unclasping her bra to get my hand directly on her breasts.

After some time she desperately wanted more so I slid a hand down her panties and immediately felt how soaked her pussy was. I gathered some of her wetness and began rubbing her clit slowly. She started moaning louder and I hushed her by making out with her passionately again.

"I want you to eat me out, but what are we going to do about the door?" she asked. I locked the door immediately and pulled her shorts and panties off, desperate to taste her again. But then she blew my mind.

"Actually no, I want you to fuck me".

I grabbed a condom from my bag (fortune favours the prepared), slid it on and savoured the sight before me. My cousin naked from the top down, begging me to fuck her again. And I obliged.

I pushed her slim sexy legs apart, got on top of her, and slid my cock slowly into her. It was incredible, her pussy was impossibly tight and gripped my cock so hard. Later she confessed she hadn't had sex since the last time we did, and the inexperience showed as she tensed her legs. I gently asked her to relax, and she did, allowing me to penetrate her deeper.

With one hand holding her waist and another under her shoulder supporting myself, I slowly started fucking her faster. I couldn't resist pulling up my shirt to see my dick inside her, an incredible sight I thought I would never see again. All the pent up desire for each other overflowed, and it wasn't long before I came amazingly intensely inside her.

Not wanting to disappoint her, I cleaned up quickly and began fingering her while making out with her until she came on my fingers.

I want her so desperately but the distance is a huge issue. Regardless, there will be many nights, like tonight, where I will be masturbating to this experience. Making myself cum over and over again to the memory of fucking my soulmate, who is my cousin.