The love I feel for her is unreal... I've never been... Open to sharing this, to talk about it. But I need to.

The fact that she has wanted it too, has scared me for years. I have always been the liberal one. Raising her on my own for years. Wanting her to be free to explore herself. It's my job to me a safety net. Not a prison guard. She took her freedom with both hands. I was filled with jealousy, for such a long time. Seeing and hearing her with her boys. Not willing to accept that I wanted what they had.

When the moment finally came... I was so ashamed. But so happy. And, I still want her to be free. She is. I just, get to have what I shouldn't too.