I've been mainly posting about interactions with my son. I posted about my tryst with my uncle in my younger years. I try to only keep relevant information as I don't want much of my life on here. I have mentioned my other child and only by "other child" because they were not important. But this feels important and it is related to what has been happening.

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My mother child is a daughter. I won't give her specific age because I don't want to leave any bread crumbs for someone to narrow this down but she is older than my son I've mentioned(18 ). I know a lot of posts in this sub seem to somehow always evolve into "and then the whole family started having sex." This is not that. This was mainly in my head

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So my daughter has dated both men and women. We have open communication in this house. In the same way my son felt comfortable politely asking for a blowjob. My daughter just flat out told me one day that she finds women attractive. We've discussed it. I've told her that I have been with women before. I didn't delve into my current sexual life or the situation with my husband but I told her it was okay. This was a while ago. We've always had open sex communication. As long as she is being safe and using protection I have never cared.

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Recently we had a big discussion about how she's been feeling. Without putting her life on here. The short version is she had been intimate with a lady. My daughter wanted more but the lady just wanted fun. It is sad and we've all been through it. My daughter is heart broken and has serious feelings for this girl. I hugged her and told her it'd be okay. Which is something I've done many times. We laid in my bed and I held her in my arms and she cried and spooned into me.

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Here is where my kink comes in. So in the same way I hadn't fantasized about my son before this. I'd never fantasized about my daughter. BUT I do have a big kink for incest. So much like with my son. I have fantasized about my son sleeping with me before this. I have had fantasies about taking his virginity but they are sort of separate from reality. It would stay in the bedroom with me and my vibrator but it wouldn't really impact my life. I would think about him but in person I never saw him that way until our very recent developments. In that way, it is the same with my daughter. I have had fantasies about going in her room and eating her out but it hasn't materialized into anything. I've never checked her out in passing. It would be something that stays in my fantasy. Due to my recent advancements with my son I've been really sexed up as of late. It makes me feel like a horrible mother. If you read any of my posts you can see that I have a lot of restraint and always put my kids comfort before my incestuous desires. So I've not flirted with my daughter or anything like that. But my daughter is a very attractive woman. She's fit and nice to look at. It seems the more intimate I get with my son the more I think about my daughter and it is kind of bleeding into normal life. I've never made things weird but I have found myself looking at my daughter's ass as she walks by. I've looked at her lips and her cheeks and thought of kissing them.

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Going back to the night of comforting her. We were in my bed and she was crying. I had my arms around her and I really wasn't thinking about sexual things. My mind was just focused on how much my sweet girl was hurting and how I wished I could make it better. At her age and experience she'll forget all about this in a year and meet someone else at college or at work but it hurts a lot at the time. She was wearing very short shorts with most of her thighs and legs exposed. She had on a think tank top and was cuddling into me. She took my hand and placed it on her upper thigh and I felt her soft skin and it just switched for me. I was still concerned but I just became overwhelmingly horny. I was feeling her thigh and rubbing my hand up and down. I wrapped my arms around her and this was a move on my part. I kind of lightly cupped both her breasts. Not grabbing just lightly cupping them with my hands and more pulling her in with my arms and we were like that for a while. She didn't think it was odd or seemed bothered. In fact she just cuddled more into me and I said everything would be okay and kissed her on the cheek.

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Nothing happened. I don't plan on making moves toward something happening. I don't want to see a bunch "let your father fuck your daughter." There are a lot of steps from what just happened and that happening. This is an isolated incident. It was just in my head and I didn't do anything crazy. I was wet in my sweatpants but she didn't know that. IF something were to happen, sure. But I will not pursue something. Keeping my family a family is most important to me. I do not see this as a step to becoming some kind of family thing. We are all different people with different desires. I feel sick because this is something I wouldn't have done had I not started getting intimate with my son. I feel like I have set something in me in motion.