Hello, I have more to post about and please just appreciate what I post and when I post. I am a grown woman and I am not online often. I hardly check here unless it's to post. Do not complain about us "going too slow." This is my life. We are not objects of your fantasy. We'll continue as we naturally will continue and if at some point me or him no longer feel comfortable continuing, then we'll stop and that is just how it'll happen. I do not want posting here to become a chore.

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Besides what I will get to, not a lot of touchy feely stuff has happened since I last posted. For reasons I won't specify in this post, me and my husband were away for six days and when we got back he was staying at a friend's apartment. My son didn't return until 2 days after we had returned. But we did carry on a fairly intimate relationship.

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Now when I get into this, contain yourselves. I'll never share pictures, not even without my face in them.

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Two nights in he sent that he's thinking about me It was well after midnight so I was fairly certain the kinds of thoughts he was having. Maybe it was the the distance and him not being face to face with me. But I got bit flirtier than usual. I responded with "oh, what could you possibly be thinking about that is involving me?" And immediately after sending that I felt both disgusted/horrified and really thrilled. Me being that subtly provocative with him even though it was hardly anything at all. It spooked him and I had to dial it down. It's specifically daunting to him because I am his mother. From what I've heard from him, he can talk pretty dirty with the woman he sleeps with.

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He just replied with "that was kinda overwhelming." And I was happy that he is comfortable enough to just plainly tell me how he feels. With him, I'm never left guessing and we started this new level of our relationship on the basis of honesty. If he feels overwhelmed he tells me. He tells me his plain thoughts. I never thought I'd have open communication with my son about giving him oral sex but we have it. I replied nd told him that it's okay if he's overwhelmed and that he should get some rest. He told me that he is excited and erect. I felt the urge to get playful and flirty but I just told him "you're at (redacted)'s apartment right? you should touch yourself somewhere private." Then he asked if he could think about me while he does it. Which was odd to me because I told him he can think of me earl on. I said of course and that he knows he can think of me. I asked him if he asked because he finds me giving him permission or me telling him to think of me while he touches himself is exciting. He said it was.

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This is kind of when I felt bolder again and revved up my flirty comments. I will note that I had just had great sex with my husband and he was asleep next to me so the metaphorical and literal juices were already flowing. It was just the right timing I guess because I was not this forward in later back and forth. I sent "it would make me really happy if you touched yourself and thought about me." He told me he was doing it. He said he was looking at a picture of me. I asked him to show me the one he was looking at and it was just a normal one of me fully clothed. I don't know if this was crossing a line, but seeing as he fingered me later when he got back. I suppose it wasn't but in that moment it felt really nerve racking and I was nauseous a bit after sending it. I was talking to him in the similar way I talk to my husband when we're getting frisky. I sent "would you like a better picture?" and he said yes. So I took a topless picture right there in bed and sent it to him. He told me he came and that was the end of that. I went to bed and throughout the time I was away he would tell me when he was looking at it. He wasn't very verbal about it and I think that was due to nerves. This was good for my husband because I was all sexed up thinking about how my son has pictures of my breasts on his phone.

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Jumping ahead to when we were back home but my son wasn't there. Our other child was also not there so it was just me and my husband. I was watching a movie with my husband in the night, the movie was almost over and my son returned. When I saw the light of his car pull up my heart started racing because we'd started something new and I wasn't sure what his reaction to me in person would be. He walked inside with his bags, gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek(normal) and my husband was asleep next to me on the couch.. My son went up, showered, and came back and sat next to me. He asked politely if he could "do things" with me but didn't specify. I told him to tell me what "things" he wants to do. I always never let him get away with just being vague or not telling me precisely what he wants. I feel like that is the key to this being healthy. If I agree to "do things" and he means full sex and I turn him down, then he gets upset because I agreed even though I didn't know what I was agreeing to. Or we do have sex and he regrets it because he seems terrified to look at his mother's vagina. I just want an open communication always.

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He asked if he could feel my breasts and kiss me and I told him "of course." It threw me off at first because he didn't kiss my lips. He kissed my shoulder and neck and chest and then my lips. He was feeling up my shirt and kissing me. I was kissing him back. This was probably one of the most exciting sexual encounters I've had in my life. And I have dabbled in incest in the past with sleeping with my uncle but this was just something new for me. We were passionately fully making out. I had my tongue in his mouth. He asked if he could feel between my legs and I said yes. He put his hand down my shorts and felt around while kissing me. While my husband gave me the go ahead to do this and I update him on everything. I was terrified of him waking up but he was fairly knocked out. I didn't think he'd wake up and be disgusted because he's in on the kink. I thought it'd spook my son and just be overall embarrassing but it was pretty exciting to keep looking over at him while my son felt me. He put a finger inside me slid it around. He didn't make me cum but it was exciting. He to bed after fingering me for like twenty minutes.

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The morning after we talked about it and he said he went to bed overwhelmed but he was glad he did it. He asked if everything was okay with me because he didn't want me to feel like I was pressured. I told him that I've never felt pressured by him. Maybe this is some weird fucked up thing we're doing, I don't really know. It's incest and it's morally grey. But with our interactions I can't help but be proud of the way my son handles and discusses sex and women. He's a kind young man

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