My family had zero boundaries, and I learned a lot from them rather than just jumping into the dating scene. Starting with watching masturbating, kissing, fingering, oral, watching porn together, and then full blown sex - and now everyone has moved away and we have different lives and I am lost without it. I don't want just any man now, I was so used to being my family's horny, willing relief giver that the dating scene is so confusing.

I also don't know what a man is going to think of me with this kind of background. Maybe he would be into it or maybe he would think I'm crazy and judge me. Maybe I shouldn't even tell him. If anything I know I would want a man that reminds me of at least my father or brother. Am I broken?