Me(23f) and my cousin(24m) has always been close since we were kids. When we was younger he used to say he had a crush on me and I never took it seriously until we got way older (recently) and said he wanted to be with me. I was really shocked honestly and he’s also HOT!! I’ve always had an invest kink and fantasized about getting fucked by a family member…I didn’t want to go far so we only had oral sex and he made me cum so many times!! I also gave him head and it was so hard to shove it deep in my mouth from how big and thick it was! I recently messaged him about it to see if he might’ve been interested in doing again or even going further but he kinda shot me down and pretended like it didn’t happen ;-; now I’m embarrassed and don’t know what to do.