Alright, before I start. No, this isn't a confirmation to see if have imposter syndrome post. This is just me kind of asking and speaking about this strange dilemma I have from time to time.

I shared this info elsewhere but basically, I constantly downplay my own skills and capabilities. Always reminding myself that there is someone out there who basically surpasses me in everything I can/will do. (And yes, it does bring me down due to the accuracy of that statement.) That's not the main reason for this post.

Unlike most cases where it's usually job/hobby related. Mine is related to personality. I don't know why, I'm pretty sure I do not possess any kind of personality disorder. And I have been told repeatedly time after time again that I am a good person, but for some odd reason, my brain doesn't believe this and attempts to coerce me into believing that I am in an A-hole. Brewing the idea that I may as well expose myself as the a-hole In r/amitheasshole or r/Niceguys respectively.

No I have not done anything (to my knowledge), note worthy for a post there and yes, it's something that I constantly worry about. I'm worried that I'm secretly a disgusting incel, which is why I don't approach woman for any kind of flirting/relationship. Let alone converses with them.

I'm worried that I'm gonna upset an employee at retail because I need help with something even though that poor soul probably had to deal with borderline psychotic customers on a daily basis, if Reddit is to go by. So, I never ask.

People thank me for doing something nice and tell me how much of a good person I am, yet.....I keep thinking that they're just be nice and that they don't want to bother wasting their time convincing me that I am actually a jerk and need to f right off.

Sorry for the vent. I just wanted to put this out their and see if anyone else may have something similar.