When I was young my mother always pressured me to make sure I would really like or continue my new interest I was getting into before she bought anything for me to learn, I.e. guitar.

We were middle class so I understand she didn't want to waste money and she always told me I would try things then lose interest at some point.

Now I'm a single young adult doing well for myself who finds it perfectly okay to spend money on the typical things like bars/restaurants/travel/home items, BUT I really do not have any hobbies. I am so enthralled with the idea of finding an interest/passion that gets me outdoors or out of my home when I'm not working/socializing.

Two years ago I picked up kayaking and bought a kayak for myself and am proud to say I actually kayaked two summers in a row. The second summer I had less interest, BUT I feel it was due to being busy with other things in life and COVID.

Three or four years ago I got into golf for a hot second, but was honest with myself and knew it probably wouldn't last so I bought myself a VERY inexpensive used golf set. Haven't touched them in two years.

Going back to the guitar example; I got my old guitar from back home (never learned it when I told her I would) and started learning and invested in a learning app during quarantine and did it for about two weeks... haven't touched it in about a month or so... During COVID I also got into the gym for 3-4 months and taking a break due to some personal things, but I do see myself going back and getting into gear again.

NOW, my new interest is snowboarding. Every winter since I was a teen I always wanted to try it, but never had friends who were interested and I really didn't have the money to go. So last weekend I found a friend who would go with me and started figuring out where to go and what I would need. Of course I will rent snowboard/boots/helmet, but I have realized I still need to buy a lot of clothing/gear just to get out there for the first time because I own nothing past a regular jacket and some long johns since I am not into any cold weather activities.

This is starting to deter me because it seems like I need to buy one thing after another and who knows if I will even like it? I think my biggest enjoyment out of attempted hobbies is always the first part where I do all my research and figure out the best buys for my price range and I get all this new stuff.

On top of clothing/gear, then I need to pay for a lift ticket/lessons/rental equipment and if I do want to do it again, how can I make sure I always have someone who wants to go with me? AND I need to pay for a lift ticket every time...

Those last few parts make me sound down right cheap, which I promise I am not. My friend also agrees that it is starting to get pricey just to try the sport as well, but she is in a different financial situation than me. I am lucky enough to be able to go do whatever interests me at the time, but I also do not like wasting money.

I get nothing in life is free, but why do I always do this? How do I stick to something? How do I reason with myself that it is ok if I do not enjoy or stick with a new hobby? Why do I not think twice about spending money on certain things, but make myself feel wasteful when I want to try something new that can improve my life and bring different fun/happiness into it.

WHY DO I NEVER FIND A HOBBY OR INTEREST THAT I ACTUALLY STICK WITH?