My wife does not have fertility issues and we plan to go through IVF soon to freeze embryos, but know we can't afford a surrogate until more than a year from now. As is, I'm very upset (with myself) for having waited this long. I feel like my kids won't be able to relate to me because I'll be like their grandparent. Or maybe they will since I feel like I'm just an eccentric, spontaneous, goofy guy as is (act more youthful than most guys my age, also I was blessed with good skin and look younger than most men my age). I come from a family of 8 aunts/uncles and more family has always translated to more joy. And I know this means we may not be able to have/afford more than 2, max 3 kids.

I know how this must sound to someone who is struggling to even conceive one child and it's not fair for me to ask this from anyone, but I hope someone here can knock some sense into me and tell me it's not as bad as it seems in my head. Or, if you agree with my thought process, heck, reassure me my sadness is justifiable. Thank you in advance for helping me with these thoughts.