This past Saturday my 3 year old shih tzu Remy woke up and couldn’t use her back legs or piss on her own and could not control bowel movements. Now the day before she seemed to be in discomfort but she had a small little back injury a year prior. We used meds and she was better after a week. Fast forward Friday night I noticed she was shaking and uncomfortable and I said tomorrow we are gonna see a vet. At 5:30 am I woke up and saw her legs she could not use so I then immediately took action and rushed her to the emergency vet. The vet looked at her and told us she had no feeling in her toes or anything at all and to get and mri could be a disk issue. I got a second opinion because MRI and surgery was expensive but I mean I was willing to do that, but I just wanted another opinion. Incase they missed something or what were the other vet said the same thing I went back because they had a neuro surgeon ready. So I paid for most of the surgery upfront they took mri images and they called me with the news that it was worse then they thought. They gave my pup a 20 percent chance of living and from the image a really high chance she had myelomalacia already forming. I had a really tough decision to make as I wasn’t sure what to do. In the end I decided it was best to put her to sleep even though I wasn’t sure because I felt so guilty but what the surgeon showed me on the scan it didn’t look good. Now I’m not the vet but they are. Now I’m just having a really hard time if I made the right choice because I see many success stories. I’m just in fucking agony about this. I loved this Dog sooooooo much. So much. I’m so damn sad and need guidance. Please someone talk to me.