Hey there! Thank you for stopping by, I hope your day is going alright, and that you remember to drink enough water. I do admit it’s a bit nerve recking writing about myself like this, as I am both anxious about forgetting important things about myself, and simultaneously, am worried about sharing personal details to online strangers. A weird combo no doubt. This is a fair warning of a long post, I do hope you find it interesting, and please feel free to reach out if you think it might strike a conversation or a relationship. ☺️
*A bit about me*
Recently I’ve tried the experience of trying to define myself using 5 words only. Here is what I came up with:
1. Israeli – Born and raised. I had a brief amount of time in my upbringing in the states (hence the English), but I think and feel in Hebrew. It is a tough time these days, and I think the war and situation might have to do with how this definition raised to the top. 🇮🇱
2. Curious. I think I find a lot of different things, people, and concepts interesting. Did you know that the decimal system (counting: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10) has only been popular for about 1000 years? Crazy. 🔟
3. Nice. For reasons that aren’t clear to me, I find it important to myself to be kind and nice to my surroundings. Even more so, I think I find it important to myself that people think about me as a nice person. 😇
4. Persistent. I think I mostly find meaning in long lasting habits and rituals. Not to toot my own horn, but I have a 1000 day streak in Dulingo. 🦉
5. Weird. At times I think special can be a better word to describe this. I think I have my fair share of strange things I do in life, but perhaps I should keep at least some of my cards closer to my chest. 🫣
Some more things I think are worth mentioning:
• I speak, read, and write in 5 languages (Hebrew, English, French, Arabic, Spanish). Language in general is a big part of who I am, what (and how) I think about.
• I am an avid podcast listener. I usually listen to Hard-talk (by the BBC), the daily (By the NYTimes), Haaretz hashavua, the conflicted series, and The Spanko podcast. Do you have a recommendation for a podcast? I’d love to check it out!
• I suffer from depression. I am both medicated, and take part in therapy. I think I am (Relatively) high functioning. It’s (relatively) rare for me to sit a full day and do nothing, but I do have my pessimistic tendencies.
• Things I cognitively know that improve my mood are: eating enough healthy food, drinking enough water, exercising, and taking a shower. Petting a cute dog. But even though I am aware of these, it doesn’t mean I follow up with doing them. Perhaps this is something I would like help with from a prospective future Daddy/Mommy/Mentor/Dom/Domme.
• I work in tech. it almost feels like this is trivially true for the majority of people around me, so it’s almost boring. That being said, I think my job is very interesting, and I find myself thinking and contemplating about riddles and tasks within it constently.
• I am ENM. I have a nesting partner. We have been living together for 5 years, and I love her dearly. She does know about me being here and consents fully. I do understand that this is a limit for some people, and I respect that, but she is a constant in my life.
• I try to make it a habit of petting every dog I see when I walk down the street. I really try to ask the owners if it’s alright, and even If I think I’m in a hurry, it’s my own private version of: “don’t forget to stop and smell the roses”.
*Some kink and funny business*
I have yet to fully explore the depths of what it means to be little/middle/mentee for myself. I have feelings that keep coming up and desires that make me lean this direction but have yet to fully let my "freak flag" fly in an understanding and loving environment. Sometimes I want to be coddled but sometimes the very thought makes me emotional. It feels difficult to explore these feelings with just anyone, as any person who has ever thought a non-vanilla thought has probably known.
I am a shy little/middle. Sex and sexual is important to me, even if I don’t necessarily know how to talk about it or express myself in it. Playfulness and curiosity are a big part of what attracts me to this. The mindset of enjoying “childish” things, such as cartoons, coloring, pajamas and games. Escaping the adult world.
I like to think that spanking is a part of my sexuality. With the same breath: I do find that pain can be a tool to better improve myself, so I don’t necessarily think about it as a sexual thing per say. Perhaps more of as a self betterment tool. Thinking along the lines of: pain as a deterring factor to try and achieve goals.
*You*
I am looking for a friendly Daddy/mentor. Someone to divulge all my secrets to. To explore a dynamic with. To share the minute silly parts of the day with. Someone willing to be a guide, a helping hand, a kind, yet strict, voice leading me down a righteous path. I think I’d flourish in an IRL sort of relationship. I am open to trying online though, even if I have me pessimistic tendencies. I am open to it, but I am not expecting it.
You are older (at least in spirit, if not in age), mature, intelligent. Experienced, or at least experienced in thought. You view yourself as successful. Gentle but firm. I am not looking to fit you in a box and tell you to check off all the items a list. At the end of the day, the right connection matters more than anything. Yes, I have preferences and I prefer to be talking to Daddy, a Dom who knows exactly what to say and when, but I am also aware that communication is a journey. And every journey must have first steps.
*What I have to offer*
I am an intelligent little/middle. I am communicative, and I can even try to be a bit of a brat. I think I am relatively functional with technology, and I am kind, supportive, and a good listener. I will text you good morning, and good night, even if the day got away from both of us. I understand life and (some of ) it’s nuances. I will care about you and accept you for your darkest desires, and encourages you to sharpen them.
There's more to me than this, or so I hope. I might share some other kinks , thoughts and ideas that could make a DDlb/MDlb/CGL dynamic fun.
Just shy over 1000 words later, I think I’m close to done. I’d love to hear from you if you’re out there! I do hope you have a great day ahead of you, and once again, don’t forget to drink some water💧