Hey everybody! I've made it thru most of my life having to be the bigger person in almost every way. Especially with my parents. They never got married and had a one night fling and I popped out 8 months later (had a premature birth by c section for idk why). My mom was more like a traditional dad, cold and calculating with no warmth and my dad was the emotional one. He was always the black sheep of the family. Same with my mom and subsequently so am I now! Yaayyyy!!!! Hold your applause please. Jk However I have always tried my best and I never surrender unless I become disinterested. Ive been finding that I really need someone to show me how to be an adult.. how to have common sense and to truly be a leader. Because I've got my associates already and I'm heading back for a bachelor's in philosophy and then I wanna go to law school, I'm setting myself up to help and empower others. But I just don't think I'm strong enough at this point and I'm weak and unknowledgeable in too many areas. Especially in self knowledge and knowing my place in the world and what the standards and expectations already are.

Quick facts: -been arrested 10 times -have held multiple management positions in food service -founded and operated my own events company for about a year -born and raised Catholic; currently agnostic -went to Catholic school 1-8 grade; I was an altar boy -Gandhi, MLK, FDR and Aristotle are some of my role models -i haven't been single for longer than a period of 9 months since I was 16. -ive been in pretty consistent therapy since i was 18 -im a musician and play multiple instruments but my focus is on writing songs, not execution of fine motor skills -i smoke marijuana almost everyday and have since I was about 18 -im not a big drinker. I only get really drunk 1 or 2 times a year -video games used to be an obsession of mine cause I could escape the harsh conditions of my reality.

I would love it if someone could help me out with some of this. Having someone be there everyday and responding to texts is preferred but not necessary, I mean I would appreciate any sort of reciprocity from this post. Thank you for your time and consideration I look forward to talking with you

Best regards

Elliot