I truly can't make myself do anything. I go to sleep around 5-6 almost every night because I'm always on my phone or YouTube bc my mind won't stop yearning for information, like how I'm doing at this very moment. It's so hard to force myself to do anything productive. Not always due to lack of energy, but bc my mind just isn't being stimulated by it.

I spend a lot of my time watching combat sports fights looking for new techniques, listening to discussion videos about whatever topic I'm interested in atm, listening to music, or just anything that's stimulating. But when it comes to actually working out, or arranging my clothes, washing the dishes, etc, my brain just dreads it.

I'll be like "alright, I'm about to work out today". Procrastinates a little bit, then I lose interest and motivation, then I'll just go fuck it, smokes blunt or drinks alcohol. Its really gotten out of hand and I'm watching my life and time pass by bc of it. Ik for a fact I have adhd but am I fucking autistic or what? I freestyle all my days. Even when I plan to do something, I just bail out cause I'm bored and would rather play games or watch YouTube/Twitch

This is definitely an ADHD thing, idk if it's an intp thing. Do any of you guys experience this? I can't even bring myself to journal or pick drawing back up again. I just get discouraged very easily when I don't do well in something so ig procrastination is my way of protecting myself from the feeling of failure.

Ik practice makes perfect, but what if I want my practice to be perfect?