I'm reaching out to connect with someone who might understand what I'm going through and is interested in regular conversations, eventually meeting in person, and exploring the possibility of a long-term connection.

I find myself in a situation that has spiraled beyond my control, and I'm at a loss for how to extract myself from it on my own.

I'm deeply in love with my best friend [F30]

We've discussed it and she's fully aware of my feelings for her. She cares for me deeply and we've always been open with each other, so despite this revelation, our bond remains strong.

However, within the last few years, she's been through some personal trauma and betrayal, which has left her hesitant about committing to a new relationship and she is not yet ready, nor sure when/if she ever will be ready.

Despite this, we still maintain a close connection. We chat semi regularly and we hang out occasionally. There are also shared events that bring us together a few times a week.

The inconsistency in our communication and time spent together is taking a toll on me. The lack of progression in our relationship, coupled with the uncertainty of her feelings, leaves me in a constant state of anxiety and depression.

My goal is twofold: first, I need help accepting the reality that this relationship probably will not happen in this lifetime. I need to learn to come to terms with that and move on. Second, I'm hoping to make a new friend who could potentially grow into a long term relationship.

Given that my emotional state is quite raw right now, I have days of severe lows where I find it difficult to function. I need someone who can handle my fluctuations with compassion and understanding and who can be there for me during these times.

I'm a giver and looking for another giver, I've had my share of takers and I'm no longer equipped to handle that dynamic.

I'm a romantic at heart, I want to be with someone who enjoys spending time with me as much as I enjoy being with them.

I'm looking for someone who shares my values and interests, and who is open to exploring a deep connection.

If you're local and interested in helping me navigate this situation, gaining a new friend and possibly more, please don't hesitate to DM me. I'd love to chat regularly and work towards meeting up in a reasonable timeframe to see where this might go.